I'm Back!

So, here's the thing: I had a blog before, but I put entirely too much emphasis on the wrong things and eventually I hated what I had created. It was bittersweet to give it up because I am EXTREMELY opinionated, and don't have very many outlets for my frustrations, but at the same time I felt like I had to be "proper" and "perfect" on my blog. I was trying too hard not to hurt anyone's feelings, and to be politically correct and to be "open minded" and accepting of others. Also, a lot of people just don't get me or where I'm coming from so they couldn't exactly relate and I was trying too hard to be someone others could relate to. So, I deleted my previous blog because I couldn't devote the time I wanted to it and make it perfect and gather a bunch of followers and blah blah blah, whatever bloggers do. Well, FUCK THAT! Seriously, this is my blog and I don't care who reads it, I don't care who likes it. I need this place to vent to keep me from choking motherfuckers who piss me off on an hourly basis. 

In reality, I'm a really sweet, generous person (to your face) but I can't stand stupidity and for some reason these days it is running rampant and it is driving me crazy. But because I am who I am, I will never call someone on their own idiocracy. Nope, I just get frustrated and bitch about it to my fiance or my sister. I mean really if I told people what I actually think of them, I wouldn't have any friends. That doesn't mean I'm a bad friend either, that means that I'm having trouble in my current situation finding people who are more like myself and share my cynicism and humor who have their shit together and can get over themselves enough to actually be a good friend to me. The thing is I have always been this way and while I am open to learning new points of view, I don't think my core values are going to change much. So I have grown to accept that people won't agree with my thought process, but I am still entitled to think the things that I think.

So there is something that I have always warned people about, is if you are part of my life one day I'm going to write a book (ok, so a blog will have to do for now) and it is likely that I will write about you. Good, bad and ugly.